Be Careful With Your Thoughts
Sometimes I struggle with guilt over feeling like I could have been more loving, less judgmental, more accepting of my stepson Mason before he died.
I was falling asleep and sort of talking to him in my head and then had a dream with him in it. Since my dad and Mason have passed, I have had 6 specific dreams where one of them has appeared to me and the light around them was so clear, so incredibly vibrant, and in each of those dreams one of them asked me to touch their hands so that I would know it was real when I woke up.
My friend Karen Noe, who is a gifted medium, once told me that when a loved one visits you in a dream and you are able to touch them, it is a real visitation. Anyway, Mason told me in the dream to hold his hands, and his energy was so joyful and funny, and then he got very serious and told me that I needed to stop with the guilt. He told me that guilt was soul-sabotaging and pointless, he said that everything in his life was the culmination of choices he made, and that it was his correct path. He told me that all of our lives are up to us and the decisions we make, and most importantly he told me that when we die we go energetically to the same level we were at while we lived. He explained that our lives are classrooms and when we die we continue with those very lessons, and that whatever vibration you spent your life living at you start there as well on the “other side.”
The way he explained it felt like there was no judgement to it, it’s just the way it is. He then told me to be careful with thoughts I was choosing, and decisions I was making that were self-harming because, as he explained, the purpose of living is to love, and it must start with the self. He then laughed a little more and released my hands. I woke up and wrote it all down. I felt more peaceful than I have in a while and since then I have made a point of not judging myself so harshly for not being where I would like to be in my career or with my writing, but instead to focus on loving myself more than anything else.
I just thought I should share that with you all in case anyone needed to hear this message today.